Thursday, May 31, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
This weekend we are heading camping with a ton of friends, Scott's best friend is home from Afghanistan for a few weeks so we are all heading out to brave the wilderness...well not really, we are going to a nice camp right on the water which is actually quite nice and luxurious! But still, I like to think we'll be roughing it. Camping, is always an activity which involves lots of eating and drinking. Sounds like fun, but it isn't too easy on the waistline. Especially when the roasted marshmallows are broken out and someone just happens to have brought all the requirements for SMORES! I am going to try to pre-plan...bring my chicken for the BBQ, make a big salad to munch on all day but for some reason, the smell of BBQ hot dogs drives me to madness!! I LOVE BBQ'd hotdogs.....they are my favorite!! So now I am trying to make a judgment call...should I just stay strong and stick with my chicken and veggies while everyone else is eating chips, BBQ hotdogs and hamburgers, corn on the cob, seafood etc or should I go out and buy the Schneider's 1 point hotdogs...just in case?!?!?! I am worried that I will get there and throw caution to the wind and start chowing down on those bog 5 points hotdogs and go nuts. I really DO want to stick with my chicken and veggies...I know I will feel better if I do. The next day my stomach will thank me, I'm sure of it. What does everyone think would be my best plan of action!?!?
My next WI is on Saturday before we leave for the camping trip so maybe that will direct me and give me more motivation to stay on track...unless I see a gain...then I fear for my poor stomach!! Help! :)
Monday, May 28, 2007
I also had a great NSV on Saturday. It was 35 C on Saturday and it was sooo hot here in New Brunswick, I think we were experiencing a heat wave. When I got back form my walk on Saturday morning, I couldn't stand the thought of putting on jeans and I didn't have any shorts or capris that fit me anymore so I went down to Suzy Shier in search of a cute jean skirt to wear to the shower. With my best friend in tow, we searched and searched and took about 7 or 8 different shorts/skirts into the changing room. Well I found the CUTEST little jean skirt in a size 9!!!! And I happened to notice that it was just a little loose around the waist so I asked my best friend Ryan to grab me a 7 just to be humorous....well I tried it on and IT FIT!!! I couldn't believe I had gotten myself into a 7!!!! 7!!!! I saved the tag and I am thinking about framing it :) Granted it was a skirt and they tend to fit a little bigger anyway and it has lots of stretch in it... but I don't care...it's a 7!!!!
That was my weekend in a nutshell....to be quite honest I must say I did have a few glasses of wine Saturday night when I got home but it was just what I needed after such a long day planning the shower, decorating and all that jazz. How was everyone's weekend??
Friday, May 25, 2007
So last night I was thinking about it and I came up with a plan to make my new meal plan more livable and I think I may have figured out a way to avoid weekend binges, at least for now. The meal plan that I am on is SUPER strict. You HAVE to eat what's on the menu and there is no wavering. For the first 2 weeks I did awesome....ate exactly what I was supposed to and lost a ton of weight. But then those odl craving started coming back and as much as I tried to fight them....that just got stronger. I realized that the diet is so strict that it pretty much led me to a weekend binge fest. I couldn't handle it. I just love chocolate WAY too much to say good bye to it for 6 whole weeks. Last weekend I went crazy with eating...it was insane. If I listed all the junk I ate, you would be horrified!! To name a few there was Nibs, chocolates bars, brownies, pizza, more Nibs, more pizza, pasta smothered in cheese, garlic bread. YIKES!!! I'm talking MASSIVE amounts of sugar and fat. INSANE! I also decided that I may be on this meal plan for more than 6 weeks if I want to get down to my goal. I'm ok with that, I really am used to tit now and I actually look forward to my chicken and veggies for supper!! I crave it.
The only hard time I ahve is on the weekends....the weekend always kill me. Especially with summer around the corner and Scott and I have SO much planned. Every weekend there is something planned.
So What I came up with is to stick to my meal plan STRICTLY throughout the whole week and then on the weekend, allow my ONE small treat. That way I will have something to look forward to all week AND I will be able to say no to other temptations because in the back of my mind I will be thinking about that ONE treat that I am allowed to have and how great it will be. I really think this one treat thing will keep me from binging again. I may not lose weight as fast as I would like to lose it if I do indulge in this one treat then it will keep me from going mentally insane. I have also decided that this treat cannot be over 6 WW points. Just so I don't get carried away and choose a big hunk of cheesecake or a big 25 point meal as my ONE treat. So what do you all HONESTLY think?? (Sarah?? Honest opinion??) Do you think this will work? Even if I lose 1-2 lbs per week I am happy with that. Do you think this one treat will throw the whole week of strictness away?
So here are my weekend challenges:
- Bridal Shower on Saturday night with LOADS of food and desserts (even a chocolate fondue!) On a brighter note though, there will be a veggie tray and my plan of action is to have just chicken for supper and stick to the veggie tray ONLY. I won't be partaking in alcoholic beverages at the shower so I should have a clear focused head!
- Baking on Saturday morning: I need to make frogs and Chocolate Peanut Butter Marshmallow squares. I have decided to make them first thing in the morning so I am not as tempted but still. C'mon, it's chocolate peanut butter marshmallow squares!!! Thankfully my Mom has offered to help and she can slap my wrist away!
- Sunday dinner out with the family: Luckily I chose the restaurant and chose Vito's, an Italian restaurant that has a menu specifically designed for my meal plan so I can choose off of that menu and I shouldn't be TOO tempted....until the desserts are rolled out. I can do it!
- I also would like to get in a 50-60 min power walk first thing Saturday morning as well as an afternoon walk on Sunday (maybe to the Nature Park?)
So that is it for me today, hope everyone has a GREAT weekend. Wish me luck with all my road blocks and tell me what you think of my new plan!!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
I did get out for a great walk last night for about 50 mins and I also managed to get in a 40 min walk at lunch time. The rest of the week is going to be crazy busy with graduation (rehearsal, gown pick up, hair appt and pictures) so I am trying to get in as many workouts as I can. My mom is also coming into town today and I haven't seen her for 6 months so I'm sure we'll have lots of catching up to do tonight. I'm excited to see her!!
Monday, May 14, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
This weekend we are having my mother in law over for dinner and hubby is planning this big elaborate dinner (of which I can't partake in) including pumpkin pie dessert! But I'll just have to get by with my chicken and veggies, I know I can do it though and it won't be so bad. It will be a challenge of course but I know I can do it. Saturday night Scott and I are also going out for a few drinks at a friend's place but my plan is to stick with Cranberry crystal light and tangerine vodka (VERY yummy) and I'm just going to stay away from the food, simple as that. Actually it's not that simple, as we all know. After a few drinks, those chips and dips start to look better and better. I am going to muster up all my will power though and give it my best. The trick is the next day, that feeling you get when you wake up...like I would give my right arm AND leg for pizza and chocolate bars. You all know the feeling.
My weekend food challenges:
1. Hubby and I are hitting a movie tonight.....first movie with NO movie treat, surrounded by the smell of popcorn and chocolate.
2. Saturday night drinks at friend's house.....no snacking after a few drinks (If I HAVE to snack, hit the veggie tray only)
3. Sunday morning staying on track, no pizza or chocolate. If I can make the right choice at breakfast, the rest of the day should fall in place
4. Sunday night Mother's Day dinner, watching everyone else indulge and holding back
5. Sunday night Mother's Day dinner DESSERT (I LOVE pumpkin pie)
I'm challenging myself, I know I can do it! It's my last day of the first 2 week phase and I want to go out with a bang. PLUS it is the day before my weigh in so I have to be good! Everyday though it feels like my willpower has doubled so if I think I can do it, I can do it! I can do it right? (I think this is that part where the support from your comments gets me through the weekend)
How is everyone else doing this week?
I didn't get out for my walk last night like I had hope. We viewed a house after work and by the time we got home I had a massive headache and was starving beyond belief. Tomorrow morning though I am planning on going for at least 1 hour power walk as long as it isn't raining!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Last night I did get out for a walk and it was 20 C out at 6:30! It was so nice. There were so many people out walking! I kept pushing myself and saying, just go one more street or one more hill and by the time I was done I had gone for about 50 mins (which included tons of hills). I took my Mp3 player too which really helps even though I look like a fool when people drive be and see me singing along! I need to sit down though and compile a list of good walking tunes (Again....any suggestions?)
Just a short port today as there isn't much exciting going on today, tomorrow is weigh in for a lot of you so I am anxious to see how everyone does! Monday is my weigh in and then I am onto the next phase of the meal plan! YAY! Grey's AND ER are on tonight Woohooo! Does anyone know when the new Addison spin off is airing?
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
I have always been bigger, even though I am about 4 or 5 inches shorter than him, I have always been heavier throughout the five years that we have been together! Now I am 5 lbs lighter! I was so excited about it! The first thing he said when I got on the scale and saw the big 7 lbs loss is, hey you weigh less than me. Scott has never really been overweight though, he has always had a lean and fit shape. Now he has gained some weight as he has been weight lifting and building muscle but it doesn't matter...all that matters is that I weigh less than him! And the more important thing is...I'm NEVER going back!
Just wanted to share that with all of you! Again, thank you for all of the support you have all given to me. It is basically what has kept me on track for the last 10 days. I feel absolutely fantastic and I can tell that my pants are starting to get pretty loose. I tried on a size 9 at Suzy Shier about 2 weeks ago and I was really surprised that they fit, they were a little snug around the butt, so you never know, in another 3-4 weeks I could be looking at a 7. A 7!!! WOW! Coming from a size 18, a 7 sounds like it is impossible. Last year in January I would have never thought that I could even get one leg into a 7. It's amazing that I have become a different person in the past year and a half. Same person, just more confident and sure of myself. I honestly feel like this week I am on top of the world! Success is a great feeling. Especially when that success is achieved through hard work and persistence and sweat and tears. The other night Scott looked at me with this grin on his face and just said, Carolyn you have no idea how proud I am of you. Look what you've accomplished over the past year and a half, it just amazes me. He is such a great support. I said it once and I'll say it again. Support is EVERYTHING. I wouldn't have gotten through those rough days without my friends and family pushing me along and of course all my weight loss buddies on blogs!
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Monday, May 7, 2007
Saturday we babysat my little 15 months old niece and we had the best time! We took her out and EVERYONE wanted to stop and tell her how cute she is! She loves people so much....and of course she loves attention, (must take after her aunt on that one). I stuck with my plan all weekend and I feel great! I didn't even once think about chocolate or cheating. Everyday gets easier and easier! My friend Sarah (who introduced me to the new plan) is away in Mexico but I can't wait for her to get home so I can tell her how I did on my WI!
Speaking of Weigh in..........
I was so excited this morning to get up and jump on the scale. I have simply stopped using my WW scale as it is SO NOT ACCURATE! Everytime you get on, it gives you a different number ranging anywhere between 2 whole pounds...so for my mental health I am using my old scale. The one I had originally used when I started on WW. It is accurate and everytime you step on it, you get the same number. SO I got on this morning....and....
I was down 7 lbs! 7 lbs!!!!!!!!
I couldn't even believe my eyes! I was ecstatic! Granted this is the first week of the new plan and everyone says you lose the most on your first week, and only expect half or less of what you lost on the first week, on your second week but STILL! I remember my first week on WW I lost 5 lbs in one week and I was soo happy. This week I ate extremely healthy, fruit, veggies, chicken, high protein...just no flex points! It feels good to be in the 150s. Not just in the 150s...WELL into the 150s. I haven't been here since Junior High.
Well I just wanted to share my success with you all. Hope everyone's weekend was fantastic!!! Can't wait to read up on all your blogs!
Friday, May 4, 2007
1. I can only order water. No Diet Coke, no Strawberry Daiquiri (they have the BEST in town), just water. But I should be ok with that. Its the next downfall that is the challenge.
2. At Mexi's as soon as you sit down, you are presented with a huge basket of fresh baked tortilla chips and the BEST homemade salsa anyone has ever tasted. This is the hard part. BUT I have decided to preplan. Even though I can't have the fresh tortilla chips, and I'll have to sit there and smile while everyone, including my hubby stuffs their face with the crunchy greasy goodness, I have come up with a plan. I'm going to ask for my own side of homemade salsa with my meal. That way I can still have a taste of it without going crazy. I'll just dip my veggies and/or chicken in it! It really is too good to pass up. Plus I am allowed to have unlimited salsa on my plan! So I really think I am setting myself up for success here!
On the upswing...I FEEL great today. I feel thin and hot and sexy and girly and confident and great! I know that my body is reacting well to this new meal plan. I can't just feel it, even when I am walking and I must say it feels WONDERFUL!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
If I think it's going to be hard and dreadful, than it will be hard and dreadful. If I think I can do it and it will be easy and I'll see fantastic results, than I can do it and it will be easy and I will see great results. It's really that simple!
It's just those darn timbits that hang around the office EVERY morning. I can practically smell them from my office...with the door closed. Grr. They are like little tiny devils calling my name. There's no way I'm going to indulge though. The mentality that I have now is that I have already put in almost 4 days on the strict "2 week cleansing phase" I'm not going to throw out all that hard work for a timbit! I don't want to have to start back at day one. I am really looking forward to week 3 as I will be able to have pita pizzas, soups and chili, I've already got my grocery list all done up so that I can get everything I need. This pre-planning thing really is the key to success in my opinion. It's so much easier to stay on track when everything is all laid out for you!
So tonight is a new ER and then 2 HOURS of Grey's! What more could a girl ask for?? Who's weighing in tomorrow? I can't wait to see the results! Tomorrow night we are heading out to dinner but I've already found out what I am allowed to have and they do offer it at Mexicali Rosa's (the place we are going). It's basically a salad with chicken but I'm sure they can make chicken and veggies taste better than I ever could so I am looking forward to it! It has been the driving force behind me week this week.
Hope everyone's week is going great!!
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
It's amazing what that post last night did for my focus! I'm still astounded by how much support blogging actually gives you! Monday was hard...and I mean hard. I felt like I had lost my best friend because I wasn't able to eat the food I wanted to eat. This new plan I am on takes all the guess work out of what to eat. Which is a good thing for people who just don't know how to eat healthy. I know how to eat healthy, there are just times that I chose not to. Or at least I will use 2 points on rice cakes (which have NO nutritional value) instead of eating something healthy.
Monday night I kept seeing food that I normally wouldn't even be tempted to eat but because I KNEW I couldn't eat it, I wanted it so bad it hurt! Isn't that funny? It is strange, I was at Walmart and saw a box of Nutrigrain bars (which I would normally never eat. I don't even think I've had one in about 3 years!) but all of a sudden, because I knew I couldn't have them, I just started craving them mega bad! I could almost taste them and I'm pretty sure I drooled on the Walmart counter.
So far my meal plan has consisted of lots of protein in the AM (high protein foods usually mean low taste.) For the first 2 weeks my diet is pretty limited, but week 3 allows a little (and I mean little) flexibility. So I am looking forward to that BIG TIME. I'm also anxious to see my WI results on Monday. I know that if I see a good number, that will motivate me even more to stick it out for 6 weeks. I've already put in 2.5 days...what's another 39.5??? I make it sound WAY worse than it really is!
How is everyone's week going? I have been sick for most of it but seem to be coming out of the cloud today so I am hitting the weights tonight. My work out plan is staying the same:
2-40 min Weight Training sessions (upper and lower)
2-45 min cardio sessions
3-35 min power walks at lunch
Anyone have any suggestions for me on the workout front?
Keep the inspiration and motivation coming girls!
The bright side to this meal plan is that food just tastes better. Tonight I was allowed to have a 100 calorie pack Smart Pop popcorn and I swear nothing has ever tasted better to me. It was absolutely to die for! My Weight in isn't until Monday but I am actually anxious to jump on the scale! I can't wait!
Hockey Game is on....GO OTTAWA!!! Oh and for those of you who haven't heard.....Grey's is a 2 HOUR episode tomorrow night...apparently laying the ground work for Addison's spinoff. (Thanks for the info Rye!)
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
So here is how my weekend went.
Friday I got up early (5:30 AM!) because I was so excited to get on the scale! After the 1.5 lbs gain the previous week, I was anxious to see the great low number waiting for me on the scale. I knew I had worked my butt of during the week, had gotten in TONS of exercise and eaten well within my points all week. I was actually anxious to get on the scale for once. I jumped out of bed, grabbed the scale and told Scott to hurry up in the shower so that I could weigh in (we like to WI together, I know, it's weird but sometimes you just need that extra support or encouragement ya know?) So I got on the scale with Scott beside me, closed my eyes tight, had a huge grin on my face and then I heard silence....just silence. Usually by this time Scott is gasping and saying Carolyn You're down! Great job!!! Although I didn't see a gain.....I only saw a 0.2 loss. I was AT LEAST expecting to lose the 1.5 lbs I had gained last. But no, 0.2.....just 0.2. I actually shed a tear I think. I was just so discouraged. I went to the bathroom and slammed the door (there might have been a few swear words involved). I don't think I have ever been this upset since I started WW. I mean, sure I have gained a few lbs here and there but last week I had tried so hard! and nothing. I saw my 60 lb weight loss mark was taken away from me. It was not just that I had only lost 0.2 lbs, it was that in the last 8 months, I have only lost about 10-5 lbs. I seem to have hit a MAJOR plateau. Everyone else seems to be losing at least 0.5 - 1.0 lbs per week, but I have been stuck in the 160s FOREVER!
So Friday night we headed to Fredericton to spend some time with my brother and his wife and my little niece. For supper we went to the Irving and it was like I was punishing myself or trying to seek revenge for my 0.2 loss. I ordered the Lasagna (LOADED with cheese) which also came with 2 large pieces of garlic bread...again loaded with cheese. Although I did share with Scott, I also had a piece of his deep fried fish (loaded with tartar sauce) and if that wasn't enough I had the cherry cheesecake for dessert! Of course I justified this by saying....well I have 35 bonus points.
Then Came Saturday......
Saturday I woke up with good intentions. I had some mini wheats for breakfast...more than I should have but hey at least I didn't opt for pancakes and bacon. Then I had 2 Samosas at the Fredericton Market (I was a samosa virgin before Saturday). God knows how many points those little devils are but I would guess at least 7 each. I also munched on grapes and strawberries throughout the day. When I got home I made a banana/chocolate shake which
probably added up to about 5 or 6 points. Then I decided to throw 2 grilled cheese sandwiches on the George Foreman......just when you think it couldn't get better.
Then came Saturday night.......
Scott and I decided it would be a great idea to go to Vito's (an Italian restaurant) at 10:00 AT NIGHT! So I went there and what did I order? A Ceasar Salad.......AND MOZZA STICKS! I was stuffed! But was that enough? Nope, Scott and I EACH ordered a piece of cheesecake TO GO!! How is that for self destructive behavior???
So all day Sunday I just kept thinking, how am I going to get out of this rut? What can I do?????? Then it dawned on me. A friend of mine has been doing a local weight loss meal program that I have heard so much about. Everyone keeps telling me that they have lost insane amounts of weight on the program and how challenging it is, but the rewards are unbelievable.
So I signed up. I committed myself for 6 weeks. 6 weeks of eating whatever they tell me to. 6 weeks of eating 7 cups of fruits and veggies a day. 6 weeks of no bonus points. 6 weeks of no chocolate, no candy, no movie treats, no Friday night homemade pizza. 6 weeks of no fat free cappachino's, no Cadbury Thins, no hot chocolates, no little splurges. 6 weeks of total commitment.
Here are my reasons for trying this out:
- I have been on Weight Watchers for 70 weeks, I have lost 60 lbs and I am proud of that but my body has gotten too comfortable with the system
- Not only has my body gotten too comfortable but I have gotten too comfortable with measuring, adding points, calculating points etc.
- My body seems to be too comfortable at the weight it is at. I have fluctuated with the same 10lbs since JULY OF 2006!
- I just need a break from counting points and making the right decision, I need someone to make the decisions for me.
- I would love to see 10 lbs come off before the summer (that bikini just might make an appearance!)
So I'm giving it 6 weeks. It's hard, and the plan is STRICT but I have full intentions on returning to WW after I am satisfied that I have done this plan to the best of my abilities. This is not a plan that I could LIVE on. WW is a plan I can do for life and I still have total faith in the WW system. I just think that my body needs a break from it. Like I said, I just got too comfortable with my points. I don't know why I have waited this long to post on this life changing experience but I guess I didn't want anyone to think I was giving up on WW....I'm NOT. I still love WW as much as the first day I started but I think I just need to shock my system back into weight loss mode. I also thought that maybe I could do this meal plan alone but I learned today that I can't!! It's 10X harder without the support of all you bloggers!! I didn't realise how much support I got from your comments, but without them, the weight loss journey is long and lonely!!
I'm dying to hear what you guys think of my decision........
I'll be checking up on all your blogs tomorrow!