Tuesday, May 1, 2007

I've been MIA!!!

So I completely shut myself off for the last 5 days but I just couldn't stay away. I spent the ENTIRE weekend wondering what was wrong with me and trying to think of a way to fix it! I guess I learned quite a bit this weekend actually!
So here is how my weekend went.

Friday I got up early (5:30 AM!) because I was so excited to get on the scale! After the 1.5 lbs gain the previous week, I was anxious to see the great low number waiting for me on the scale. I knew I had worked my butt of during the week, had gotten in TONS of exercise and eaten well within my points all week. I was actually anxious to get on the scale for once. I jumped out of bed, grabbed the scale and told Scott to hurry up in the shower so that I could weigh in (we like to WI together, I know, it's weird but sometimes you just need that extra support or encouragement ya know?) So I got on the scale with Scott beside me, closed my eyes tight, had a huge grin on my face and then I heard silence....just silence. Usually by this time Scott is gasping and saying Carolyn You're down! Great job!!! Although I didn't see a gain.....I only saw a 0.2 loss. I was AT LEAST expecting to lose the 1.5 lbs I had gained last. But no, 0.2.....just 0.2. I actually shed a tear I think. I was just so discouraged. I went to the bathroom and slammed the door (there might have been a few swear words involved). I don't think I have ever been this upset since I started WW. I mean, sure I have gained a few lbs here and there but last week I had tried so hard! and nothing. I saw my 60 lb weight loss mark was taken away from me. It was not just that I had only lost 0.2 lbs, it was that in the last 8 months, I have only lost about 10-5 lbs. I seem to have hit a MAJOR plateau. Everyone else seems to be losing at least 0.5 - 1.0 lbs per week, but I have been stuck in the 160s FOREVER!

So Friday night we headed to Fredericton to spend some time with my brother and his wife and my little niece. For supper we went to the Irving and it was like I was punishing myself or trying to seek revenge for my 0.2 loss. I ordered the Lasagna (LOADED with cheese) which also came with 2 large pieces of garlic bread...again loaded with cheese. Although I did share with Scott, I also had a piece of his deep fried fish (loaded with tartar sauce) and if that wasn't enough I had the cherry cheesecake for dessert! Of course I justified this by saying....well I have 35 bonus points.

Then Came Saturday......

Saturday I woke up with good intentions. I had some mini wheats for breakfast...more than I should have but hey at least I didn't opt for pancakes and bacon. Then I had 2 Samosas at the Fredericton Market (I was a samosa virgin before Saturday). God knows how many points those little devils are but I would guess at least 7 each. I also munched on grapes and strawberries throughout the day. When I got home I made a banana/chocolate shake which
probably added up to about 5 or 6 points. Then I decided to throw 2 grilled cheese sandwiches on the George Foreman......just when you think it couldn't get better.

Then came Saturday night.......

Scott and I decided it would be a great idea to go to Vito's (an Italian restaurant) at 10:00 AT NIGHT! So I went there and what did I order? A Ceasar Salad.......AND MOZZA STICKS! I was stuffed! But was that enough? Nope, Scott and I EACH ordered a piece of cheesecake TO GO!! How is that for self destructive behavior???

So all day Sunday I just kept thinking, how am I going to get out of this rut? What can I do?????? Then it dawned on me. A friend of mine has been doing a local weight loss meal program that I have heard so much about. Everyone keeps telling me that they have lost insane amounts of weight on the program and how challenging it is, but the rewards are unbelievable.

So I signed up. I committed myself for 6 weeks. 6 weeks of eating whatever they tell me to. 6 weeks of eating 7 cups of fruits and veggies a day. 6 weeks of no bonus points. 6 weeks of no chocolate, no candy, no movie treats, no Friday night homemade pizza. 6 weeks of no fat free cappachino's, no Cadbury Thins, no hot chocolates, no little splurges. 6 weeks of total commitment.

Here are my reasons for trying this out:

  • I have been on Weight Watchers for 70 weeks, I have lost 60 lbs and I am proud of that but my body has gotten too comfortable with the system
  • Not only has my body gotten too comfortable but I have gotten too comfortable with measuring, adding points, calculating points etc.
  • My body seems to be too comfortable at the weight it is at. I have fluctuated with the same 10lbs since JULY OF 2006!
  • I just need a break from counting points and making the right decision, I need someone to make the decisions for me.
  • I would love to see 10 lbs come off before the summer (that bikini just might make an appearance!)

So I'm giving it 6 weeks. It's hard, and the plan is STRICT but I have full intentions on returning to WW after I am satisfied that I have done this plan to the best of my abilities. This is not a plan that I could LIVE on. WW is a plan I can do for life and I still have total faith in the WW system. I just think that my body needs a break from it. Like I said, I just got too comfortable with my points. I don't know why I have waited this long to post on this life changing experience but I guess I didn't want anyone to think I was giving up on WW....I'm NOT. I still love WW as much as the first day I started but I think I just need to shock my system back into weight loss mode. I also thought that maybe I could do this meal plan alone but I learned today that I can't!! It's 10X harder without the support of all you bloggers!! I didn't realise how much support I got from your comments, but without them, the weight loss journey is long and lonely!!

I'm dying to hear what you guys think of my decision........

I'll be checking up on all your blogs tomorrow!

Carolyn

9 comments:

  1. ok where to start...first I am happy you are back and you will get all the support you need for sure!!
    I act in the same way, if I am not seeing results then I throw in the towel and eat what I want and you didn't do that. You have decided to continue with your weight loss even if it is not weight watchers, if it will shake things up a little then why the heck not, GO FOR IT IF THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT!!!

    When you see the results at the end of 6 weeks and still want to eat very clean there is always the Core plan that gives you more flexibility than you would believe and it really works, if you need info come see me.

    I am happy that you had this revaltaion and I can't wait to hear all about it and see the results :)

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  2. Been wondering where you've been. I've had those weekends when I just eat everything in sight. I nearly finished off my daughter's birthday cake last week.

    And it's true...your body starts to crave junkier and junkier foods and more and more of them. I think this plan will be great for you and you will be ready for your WW freedom at the end of those 6 weeks.

    Can't wait to hear more about it! So what are you eating these days?

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  3. Welcome back sweetheart!! Do "that plan" for 6 weeks.. and then go on Core. Christina seems to info on that! Yes. WW is the best. About being full..why don't you eat most of it at the beginning of your lunch.. go for a walk around the building.. and then come back and finish the rest of your meal? Just a thought!

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  4. It's good to have you back. And indeed, the support from all you guys is HUGE. We're human, and not being rewarded for good behaviour is freakin' hard.

    My mantra is 'do what works FOR YOU'. If that means going off WW and trying something new, that's awesome. Your body needs a shake-up, and you're giving it that - that's awesome.

    Good luck, and you better keep us updated. :) I want to be celebrating your losses with you as you get out of the darn plateau!

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  5. well, I will be interested to read this new journey your on. I don't think there is anything wrong with changing it up - what ever will keep you going on your journey and healthy - I say go for it.

    On the WW front - were you eating your activity points? Many people eat the minimum points and exercise like pigs and then their weightloss stalls cause their body isn't getting enough?

    Anyhow - good on you for coming up with a plan to keep going instead of getting discouraged and giving up.

    Please be sure to let us all know how this goes!!!

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  6. i'm glad to see you're back!!! i say do what you want and you think will work. and like you said, after those 6 weeks, go back on ww. maybe you just need a break from it. good luck with what you are trying!! i hope it works for you :o)

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  7. CJ

    I just saw you yesterday and you look amazingly awesome!!! Or.. (Fabulous) as a certain someone has recently said over and over..haha

    But.. if you would like to lose more than go for it! It's all about how good you feel and where you want to be so if you want to lose more... try this new plan! I have friends who have been on it and you lose weight really fast and stay healthy at the same time!
    Good luck!
    Erica, Andrew and Gracie

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  8. losing an average of 1.16 pounds a week is nothing to cry over - that's awesome... everyone's body reaches a point where its hard to get the scale moving again - have you changed-up your exercise program lately? doing the same thing over and over can cause your body to get used to things... :o)

    i think the new 6-week plan sounds great, though i could never do it - too strict... i'm sure you'll do really well and i look forward to hearing about your progress... :o)

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  9. Go for it! I firmly believe that your body needs to be shocked sometimes. I'm glad that you're looking at this new plan as something temporary and are planning on going back to WW afterwards. Those strict strict plans are great to drop lbs but it would be very hard to keep it up for an extended period. Good luck for the next 6 weeks!

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